Not just yet

Mama's drunk but certainly not off love, cause papa's not home and brothers' depressed along with sister, she's in distress.

I'm going to make you proud mama I promise,
 and now i'm thinking to myself, when?

When will I make her proud?

But I will, I swear I will, it's coming mama don't you give up on me too, not just yet.

I'm almost there, I'm so close mama hang in there please.
please,
please,
please!
That word has no meaning to me anymore.

I'm sorry,
im sorry
im sorry

That meaning is gone too. Because i've wasted them all on you. I don't mean those words when I tell mama anymore but I truly did mean them when I was telling you.

So I need to say it one last time,
Can you give me my heart back? ....Please? If you do then I could leave you alone.

(saying the title after every question in this poem, will answer all the questions)